PLEASE READ THESE TERMS:
dedicated to myself...and all out there..feeling frustrated and cold..this world is cruel. But the light is still there..chances are still around..continue trying =)
Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on
Stand in the line just ahead of the law
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carrying on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
and the whole thing it turns out Wrong
You might not make it back
and you know that you could be well oh that Strong
Well I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Just back from a 3days 2 night camp..OGL camp. Hmm nice one..met alot of ppl tat I always see ard in school but didn't talk to. Nice enthu ppl enthu,cheerful..encouraging..hey that's what an OGL need to have! Yep..I'm in Walla clan - river. WALLA ROCKS! hey walla u're so fine, u're so fine u blow my mind hey walla..*walla*, walla *walla*...[Cheers] lol. This orientation gonna be my last project with 6th Council..I must enjoy it..
Why the last..cos I didn't pass the re exams T.T Hmm First day of camp on tues..went there with such a happy mood. Yay!~ camp ma..enjoy enjoy. Suddenly my frens recieve phone calls from school..saying that we must meet the V.P at 4pm that day. A while later I recieved it too. My heart sank. What does this call imply. Had a bad feeling at that point in time..While waiting for 4pm..mel and I sat outside while others practiced mass dance. Couldn't dance liddat when we are so worried.. Sat at the grandstand..looking towards the green field. Yet the sky was grey..pouring with tears from heaven. For 1 hr+..we didn't talk much. Just sat beside each other in silence..listening to the rain..as though it was trying to calm us.
Then at 4..went to MPR5. Saw a few students around. Around 20. It's either we pass or didn't make it. Chose to believe we made it first. Then the teachers stepped in. The atmostphere was so uneasy. All the students there were so silent..so worried that no one even made any noise. Then came the news.. that we all didn't make it. Haiz..suddenly felt so shocked..was asking myself..am I dreaming? But it's absolutely true..collected the report cards..went out. 2 of my other council mates also shared the same fate. We were so dissapointed..All went off in diff directions to take a walk alone. Then I met up with another one to go back and join the camp..the other..she had a hard time accepting..and we couldn't find her too..
Yea it was hard to face the hige crowd. But no use hiding.. anyway they were sincerely concerned. Sorry to my pubco mates..especially the 2 heads..gotta pass the work to others next year..Felt so down..but I didn't cry. Couldn't bring myself to do so. Heard some advice from teachers and frens..decided to go home for the night..chill and straighten out my thoughts...at the same time break and discuss the news with my parents. Pouring heavy rain..dad came to fetch me. Slept immediately when I reached home...couldn't bring myself to tell them yet. Till next morning then I did. Yea then everything is settled. Felt so much better by then. I've accepted the fact..that I didn't study enough too. In a JC..even studying hard is not enough..not like sec school...where everything is straight from the text..close one eye also can pass.
Back to the camp I went next morning..everything considered ok..did cheers, songs, games. Wonderful..just why must I get this news. Put that aside for now..yea 2nd night..lights out at 12.30. Took a bath..went with a few frens to fold the orientation booklet. Wei sheng and I spent ard 6hrs just to print Zzz..super big thanks to all those who helped..really..connie,mel,chen jie,serene,fiona,limin,yixin, mr tong himself. FOlded till near 5am. All soo tired..backache..some folded till they fell asleep. Same here..weird..I can chat with someone wholenight till sunrise..yet now I can't..hmm..didn't manage to see sunrise. So tired just slept inside MPR3. With a windbreaker..just lie on the floor. Tossed and turned a few times..cos the floor too hard..must switch sides..
woke up at 7.45...froze. Cold until...dunno how to describe. Was shivering..back also aching..brushed up..had a nice breakfast..programme just carried on till we break camp. T.T ... I really gonna miss everyone. Next year...work hard..
[ An inner voice told me dun cry..be brave. Face ur problems..solve them. Yea.. Thanks to that person whom consoled and kept checking if I'm fine. After i recieved my results only felt like telling u..dunno why..maybe cos u can console me. It's really really nice of u...thanks..I'll remember it ]
Then went back home. Halfway on the bus mum called, and said she's going Lot 1 with my sis =.= LOL ..as I was already starving.. I decided to meet them halfway. Dropped off at yew tee MRT station.. then waited opp for their bus to come before I hopped on. Yea..had Long John silvers for lunch. The fish wrap so nice ^^. Sis then had a hair cut.. then we went back. So in total was 4 bus trip. The scary/funny thing is... IT'S THE SAME FREAKING BUS UNCLE!!! ARHHHH. I think he's more scared than me. Must be wondering.."omg..it's her again!! HER!" LOL. Zzzz..Now I got phobia taking 302. LOL.
Anyways.. reached home..decided to watch king kong with that bunch of maddies. In the end I didn't sleep ( which I planned to ). Had a nap yea..30 mins one. Power nap! lol. Raining that time.. then made some arrangements to meet those maddies. Thanks to sweety 1 for that umbrella.. so nice of him. Thanks to sweety 2 for the car ride by his dad. And yea.. the cinema sit. That dodo sweety 3. Show starts at 10.30. He tell us to meet at...AT 5!! lol. And I tot it ENDS at 10.30..was thinking..arhh can go back to sleep (preferably dota la LOL) so we went JP..walk walk..had dinner..dotx. Having porridge for dinner ok ma..=.= Then went to arcade. Woa.. House of the dead so ultra nice. Sweety 4 played.. so geng. Jia YOu! But OWNED by the boss! LOL. Not bad not bad. Then went Mos Burger...sat there for a while for another sweety to arrive. Talked crapped there. My phone nice to explore arh =.=? FINALLY 10.30..ZZzzz I was already zombified. Think I look abit too sian. Sweety 2 keep saying.. Dun look so sian la. Haiz..wat to do.. results...OUT SOON. ARHHH..
Watched King Kong..not bad overall.. but the front abit too irrelevent. Not boring thou..but..I think it could have been shortened. Felt a mixture of Titanic, Jurassic park, Creepy Crawlies, Vampire.. Woa..alot of things. Some parts are dam funny thou..Whole cinema laugh like dunno wat. 12 am..someone said to throw the popcorns and drinks then shout Merry Christmas. But didn't leh. LOL. Cannot imagine if that happened... but anyways.. they passed msg..so have to whisper instead. Good enough le. Not gonna write the storyline here. But I think it's worth watching. Certain part are gross..covered my eyes.
Yea.. 1.30am it ended. How to go home -.- ..lucky dad beforehand say he'll come fetch me. Yea! thanks alot lo..very appreciated..BUT..BUT!!! those sweeties how leh. they funny la.. see midnight show go JP. Go lot 1 still can walk lo. Anyways decided to squeeze at the back of the mini van. 9!! 9 PERSON. ZZz...cramp until..heard that one of them didn't sit. Squatted.ZZzzz. At least everyone reach home earlier ma! lol.. Yea.. Had a nice and fun day...
Zzz..going for camp. MIA for 3 days at least. Looking forward to New Year..yay~~
weee...here's wat happened on monday for ex 4-8's bbq. So sorry to blog only now.. hahaz.
Hmm went there early to set up the pit. Not early actually..was ard 4.30. Lol..targeted 1 hr.. in the end took 2hr...Zzzzz..and I told them 10 fire starter is enough. They dun believe. In the end we used 20+. Zzzzzz ...really can de lo.. they dun trust me.. haiz...slowly ppl arrived..yea...so nice to see them after so long.. that usual crappy gang...lolz. Not all turned out though... T.T ..and only 1 teacher came. But it was the gathering with the highest number of ppl tat attended. A grand total of 26!!! yay!! hehex. considered a successful one.^^
The food was so yummy... :p I didn't eat much though.. was trying to bbq.. so fun. One plate of food I had to eat for so long. Then hong ting kept saying...WOA...2nd plate liao arh. Zzz...for goodness sake.. it was the same plate lo. But the food really nice.. didn't get to try otah, crabmeat..chicken franks. That's wat happened when u keep bbq-ing for others. Lol. Doesn't matter..happy can le ^^.
Best part I think was during the random present exchange. Some of the presents were hilarious. Zhen fu..LOL. Got a green handbag. Wahahahaa...Even had a video of that part.. so funny lo. So nice to see everyone laughing together.. I miss that.. I had a box of Merci chocolate.. bought by kenny. So nice~ And seow hwee got mine.. a Prints notebook. hehex. Hmm...great gathering on the whole. Hope to have the next one soon...
Results...coming soon...I can't cry out.. cannot..be brave!
Back from chalet..woo..it's the best chalet I've been to. Firstly cos it's got a super nice environment. Secondly is cos it's big! ahahaa..at least everyone felt so comfortable. Btw, it's changi SAF chalet =)
Hmm..such a coincidence that council and my family have chalet on the same 3 days, and they're just beside one another. ZZzzz..I ended up walking ard... popping over here and there. Kept myself quite bz. Lol.
Tues we met early at tampines mrt station. Yawn. Took 29 there..half an hr ride down.. woo. Went to tampines mall for lunch. And guess wat..we saw a cyber cafe. Hoho..decided to play dota there on 2nd day. Had BK for lunch..EEk..the spicy cheeseburger was weird. I tot they'll put chilli sauce inside. Instead it was HUGE chunks of green chilli. Awww..took all of them out. The burger flattened. Zzzz. Went back..popped over to family chalet.. they were just sitting ard..playing with my cousin's hair. Lol. Went back to council chalet, and played some card game. Woa everyone played to our heart's content. Shouted alot. Lol. so fun =).
Bathed..walked ard in changi Village. Hmm..had a pillow talk with mel. We were discussing about some things. Suddenly I cried. Why..think cos becos I miss alot of things. She was shocked. Yea.. This is like only the 4th time since I can remember that I cried infront of someone. Sometimes we just can't help it but to like someone. Oh man... this is so torturous. Pls take him off my mind.. I've been trying hard..apparently it's not working. Dried my tears and went down for dinner. Had spaghetti and mashed potatoes for dinner. Surprisingly it tasted so nice. *cos there was cheese inside the potatoes* Yummy...thanks alot to yixin, mel and alvin for the simple but fab dinner. Then they started to tell ghost stories. Oh man.. went over to family chalet to hide. Lol. By then it was 12+. Decided to sleep there instead.
Woa..Woke up at 10..had a nice sleep. ^^ Breakfast at council chalet. The famous nasi lemak. Yummy! so nice lo. Once again thanks to welco for it =). Wohoooo. After breakfast...time..to..dota!! Yea.. went to tamp mall with 9 other council mates...(one of them a female wor) and started playing at 12nn. Grrr.. they dun let zhao qi and me be in the same team. Lol..played 4 rounds. Of which one of them had maphack..so stopped halfway. Zzzz. Hmm but the overall feeling was good. See the rows of computers..and keep hearing sounds like ownage..triple kill..blah blah blah. Had a nice match with them. Zhao qi arh...own until like dunno wat. Shall play together again. =)
By the time we returned it was 5pm. 6 we started fire for the bbq. Mum and Dad had to help us start fire. They say unless we want to start eating at 12am. ZZzzz. Thanks anyway. Hehex. Food was yummy..but sort of getting dehydrated. Forgot to drink water. so drank 4 cups during the bbq itself. Felt bloated :x
And now I'm at home.. Home sweet home. It can never be replaced..no matter how nice other places are. =) Time to finish my stuff for council. Deadline is tight. *that's why I shouldn't have time to think of other things.. and..maybe ppl..*
Yea then on thur shall help to paint orientation banner. And friday collect money from 4-8 peeps for BBQ. Sat need to do math hmwk already. Next mon is the bbq! wee...hopefully everything turns out fine. Next year...will I still get to eat school's fish beehoon.. T.T 
I'll remember this bowl of noodles...
Yup after that went to Kimage...first time for mum, second for me, I was just bringing her there. ohh..that lady recommed alot of things... in the end.. mum decided to have a few things done altogether. Like cutting and dying hair.. And it's gonna take 3 hrs. ZZzzz. Sat there for like 1 hr..flipping magazines. Oh man.. I simply love those writeups about makeups. What they used and how all that. Hehex. Hmm left earlier to pack lunch for sis...(before that bought things for my nails ^^) reached home... started playing :x yea.. after that did my nails. awww man.. it don't really look nice leh. Cos I didn't buy the glue.. the studs could come off. T.T bwaaaa....so hard to do de leh. But no choice.. I like ma >.<
hehex...christmas coming soon. BBq too. Saw something really very nice at citylink..it's a piece of pendant or key chain type made using acrylic to seal a piece of kimono. On it there's words like "love" "luck" " "hope"... sooo nice... and it's unique cos it's a one and only type. Awww man. I most prob buying that for christmas. Maybe as an exchange perzzie at the bbq. Anyone interested go have a look, go to citylink.. the shop opp New Urban Male..weeeee.....so excited.. lotsa things coming up~
Going for CIP later :p --js signing out--
Woohoo...such a long time since I played DotA. Not bad..quite gg. Things are still the same. Nth changed. Hmm...Promos are over...more time for myself. Really?
Nah..council..quite alot of stuff to do. Hmm..orientation booklet, orientation song book, CIP this sunday, chalet next week, BBQ on 3rd week, camp preparation briefing, OGL camp...ARhhh..but it's ok.. I enjoy all these =)
Got a very mixed feeling.. slogging out for council..happy also cos working with so many wonderful ppl...yet..my future is unknown. I mean.. promos result will be out only on 28th. That's so late. What if...what if...something happens. All these effort...arhh T.T Ppl and I...are just assuming that I'll be promoted. That's why work are still dedicated. Frens have been telling me.. dun worry la..u can de. But..every since I came to a JC.. I never felt confident. Never. Just like when I was choosing CCA. Went for choir and debates audition. Tried applying for council also. Some ask..why choose 3? Cos I no confidence of passing thru the audition. Really. I was even thinking wat to do if I got rejected by all 3. In the end... I got thru all. And I got to decline choir. Joined council and debates. Enjoyed both thoroughly. But that was when academics didn't came into my mind. In the end I had to quit debates..there's no time for 2 CCA at all.
Up till now..things have been rather smooth sailing. Perfect if I was more hardworking for my promos. So sad.. I'm trying to pass this hols best as I can..yet.. I keep thinking of the results. I dunno...now can only comfort myself by crying out. At least I feel better after that.
Hmm.. short writeup for gradnite...I'll do it next time..Today went to do a video shoot in school, for orientation. So fun..we were running behind the camara, trying to narrate as they film the school. Had to dodge when the camara turns. LOL so funn XD hehex..hope it'll turn out nice. Having outing tml with those peeps. Gotta sleep now. =)
Why can't u accept me? I knew I was wrong in the past...I tried..and even though I lurve u now..u still dun like me. But it's ok. I'll continue trying..if u give me a chance. Pls.
What am I doing now..I'm looking around for skins 2 days before my exams. Oh gosh.. That's me.. and I somehow hate this behaviour. Oh man.. pls pls change this attitude! T.T...sobs.. This holiday have been very hard to pass by...worse than in sec 4. So sad...Gradnite tomolo.. looking forward to it. Really hope it'll be a success! Sad thing is that I've got to leave early...no choice.. Wanted to post a chinese song.. Only heard the midi version before.. I find the lyrics..very very sad..poor gal. Too bad I can't post chinese words ..it'll appear as symbols -.- Never mind..I'll continues looking for more eng lyrics =)
Sad thing is.. exam is on tues..T.T which means I can't stay till the whole thing is over Sobs. But it's ok...exam exam impt.. cannot reach home too late.. dun wanna fall asleep during exam. Haiz.. Most prob leaving ard 10+ >.<
Yea speaking of which...I've only 2 more days to prepare.. can't be studying on monday ma =.=....hehex all the best to mel too...all the best darling! we must try out best! ^^
Arhh... Guys always win a girls heart when they are so caring and thoughtful...help to carry a bag also can make girls think and smile over it for a long time.. sooo sweet =)
HO ho..no time to post a song =.= next time ba mu ha ha ha! ZZzzzz -sign out-
Yeps then had gradnight meeting.. arh my signage needs to be modified somemore T.T but it's ok.. it'll look better after that =) then we crapped in council room..lol. And went off to Lot 1 with mel to *study*. We did la.. just that couldn't stay too long yep. Oh ya.. I da bao the shaker fries's seasoning back. Dunno for wat. Trying to shake rice in it with the salt + msg. LOL. Hehex I'll try on thurs. Hope dun get a bad stomache :p
Then went home and slept..till..7+ recieved a call from ms teo abt our gradnight banner. Hmm the size must be much larger.. started working on it.. till now.. 3.11 am =.= want to cry le la.. the file is ard 4G.. G leh! gosh..wat's wrong with it. First time..first...and had to modify orientation booklet, arhhhh T.T I wanted to sleep de. But nvm la..work is work. At night talked with a mad sweetie boasting abt his almond jelly =.= sobs ok he win. tsk tsk.. it's near 3.20am..I'm super ultra tired..gotta sleep before I become panda T.T
And btw...here's another song! weeee...by Westlife ( my fav band ) [ To Be With U]
Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Yeah, just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
Well I've seen it all go down
Your game of love is all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you