Everything just freezes

Friday, November 21, 2008Y

3:32 AM

ok after talking to meng yim on msn, I dun feel that emo anymore. In fact I feel much better. Thanks for listening to my rants and performing the magical meng yim's mood changer LOL. Ok time to sleep, waking up tml to work hard. Gambatte!

2:35 AM

This is so depressing. Why am I in a uni. WHY?! urgh. I hate school. Not like others dun. But its really getting on my nerves. I have to study when 'many' around me don't have to. I want to play PLAY PLAY!!! Its so part of what I do and what I like yet I can't! IQ tells me I have to study study do my work my project my tests. The devil tells me i really like to play, 'everyone' else around is doing so why can't I. The prob is I CAN'T! I can never and am never allowed to do that. Not that someone is threatening me by the throat and forcing me to study, but my life is giving me no choice. How.. this is damn depressing. Why whenever someone talk to me online they ask if I want to play anot, and not if I want to make a trip to the lib and study together. T_T I know all this are just rantings, but let me be this way. Its the only way i can feel better now.
I know if I dun change, soon, very soon I'll face the consequences, the ugly and harsh reality. Someone... save me.

Sunday, November 09, 2008Y

2:48 AM

Attended Cassie's bdae chalet on fri @downtown east with huiyi, claudine, chloe and melissa. Had a good time though we went only for a short while. HAPPY BDAE CASSIE! Thanks to claud's parents who sent us back to cck area! Its soooo sickening that most chalets are in the east grrr.
Backtracking, I had a surprise of my lifetime on thurs night. Since BGS class was cancelled to let us do our research, we went back a lil earlier. I was feeling tired due to the lack of sleep the night before to rush for presentation for thurs, so was having a nap at home when I received a call from moo. The conversation stopped after a while and moo says he can't talk on phone cos his sergeant is there so we smsed a lil. I fell asleep after a while then saw his msg asking me to go down at abt 9 to get a present which he asked his bro to pass to me. Not knowing wat it is I fell asleep again after much excitment. At near 9.30 I was awoken from a phone call from moo asking me to go down and get the present. I was panicking cos I overslept and forgot to set an alarm. Apologizing and going down at the same time, we kept talking on the phone. I was just out of the lift when i saw dearie. !!! can u imagine the shock i had? It was not exactly a shock but more of a pleasant surprise. I was like stunned for so long i tot i wasn't awake yet. 'Dearie?' Cos its his confinement week, having his field camp tml. So i was super super surprised. Apparently he was out for a health check up, the 7 of them who signed up to hear more abt the air force. It was so lucky and blessed of us, so at least I saw him just before he went for the gruesome camp.
He booked in again on fri, and that was the night i went for the chalet.
Today moo had a busy day, only managed to call at 10.30 when its lights out. talked to him for a while and yea..hope that field camp will be ok for him =)