PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Thursday, December 29, 2005Y
9:17 PM
Camp. Time check : 9.20pm, thursJust back from a 3days 2 night camp..OGL camp. Hmm nice one..met alot of ppl tat I always see ard in school but didn't talk to. Nice enthu ppl enthu,cheerful..encouraging..hey that's what an OGL need to have! Yep..I'm in Walla clan - river. WALLA ROCKS! hey walla u're so fine, u're so fine u blow my mind hey walla..*walla*, walla *walla*...[Cheers] lol. This orientation gonna be my last project with 6th Council..I must enjoy it..
Why the last..cos I didn't pass the re exams T.T Hmm First day of camp on tues..went there with such a happy mood. Yay!~ camp ma..enjoy enjoy. Suddenly my frens recieve phone calls from school..saying that we must meet the V.P at 4pm that day. A while later I recieved it too. My heart sank. What does this call imply. Had a bad feeling at that point in time..While waiting for 4pm..mel and I sat outside while others practiced mass dance. Couldn't dance liddat when we are so worried.. Sat at the grandstand..looking towards the green field. Yet the sky was grey..pouring with tears from heaven. For 1 hr+..we didn't talk much. Just sat beside each other in silence..listening to the rain..as though it was trying to calm us.
Then at 4..went to MPR5. Saw a few students around. Around 20. It's either we pass or didn't make it. Chose to believe we made it first. Then the teachers stepped in. The atmostphere was so uneasy. All the students there were so silent..so worried that no one even made any noise. Then came the news.. that we all didn't make it. Haiz..suddenly felt so shocked..was asking myself..am I dreaming? But it's absolutely true..collected the report cards..went out. 2 of my other council mates also shared the same fate. We were so dissapointed..All went off in diff directions to take a walk alone. Then I met up with another one to go back and join the camp..the other..she had a hard time accepting..and we couldn't find her too..
Yea it was hard to face the hige crowd. But no use hiding.. anyway they were sincerely concerned. Sorry to my pubco mates..especially the 2 heads..gotta pass the work to others next year..Felt so down..but I didn't cry. Couldn't bring myself to do so. Heard some advice from teachers and frens..decided to go home for the night..chill and straighten out my thoughts...at the same time break and discuss the news with my parents. Pouring heavy rain..dad came to fetch me. Slept immediately when I reached home...couldn't bring myself to tell them yet. Till next morning then I did. Yea then everything is settled. Felt so much better by then. I've accepted the fact..that I didn't study enough too. In a JC..even studying hard is not enough..not like sec school...where everything is straight from the text..close one eye also can pass.
Back to the camp I went next morning..everything considered ok..did cheers, songs, games. Wonderful..just why must I get this news. Put that aside for now..yea 2nd night..lights out at 12.30. Took a bath..went with a few frens to fold the orientation booklet. Wei sheng and I spent ard 6hrs just to print Zzz..super big thanks to all those who helped..really..connie,mel,chen jie,serene,fiona,limin,yixin, mr tong himself. FOlded till near 5am. All soo tired..backache..some folded till they fell asleep. Same here..weird..I can chat with someone wholenight till sunrise..yet now I can't..hmm..didn't manage to see sunrise. So tired just slept inside MPR3. With a windbreaker..just lie on the floor. Tossed and turned a few times..cos the floor too hard..must switch sides..
woke up at 7.45...froze. Cold until...dunno how to describe. Was shivering..back also aching..brushed up..had a nice breakfast..programme just carried on till we break camp. T.T ... I really gonna miss everyone. Next year...work hard..
[ An inner voice told me dun cry..be brave. Face ur problems..solve them. Yea.. Thanks to that person whom consoled and kept checking if I'm fine. After i recieved my results only felt like telling u..dunno why..maybe cos u can console me. It's really really nice of u...thanks..I'll remember it ]
